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when the twilight sings

When the twighlight sings,
its washed away, way by the sea
open up your eyes, believe the dream
You see how I feel,
that feeling something's just not real
we are drifting through the stars
floating here to Mars
Believe the dream

love that song from sony cybershot tx-1...... you can actually download the song as your ringtone here at http://tx1.sony-asia.com and click on memory gallery.... i'm setting it as my new ringtone hehe :)

of all the things

today is piss off day... it started with some time code error, and well things just went downhill after that. i've got to pay the stupid telekom bill for the landline that i've cancelled like 3-4 years ago. broke and and then this....grrrr! felt okay after a while and then bam! i disappointed myself again... i suck! i've been telling people not to be hard on themselves and here i am cursing... it's just that i'm soo piss and i need to let it out.

i'm not cut out for this perhaps.... i'm very impatient and well it feels like things doesn't go well for me today.... it's PMS? nope.... a long week to go till that time.... i hate when things don't go well.... is it soo hard for that to happen... i guess soo.. with the things i have done i should expect misery and wrath till eternity truth be told....

damn!

dead air

i just spend my days writing in my journal and reading in my room. didn't have the mood or even effort to type anything in my blog lately as i got less motivated. everybody keep saying that i missed you that's why i'm sick... that i'm sad even at the mentioned of your name. to tell you the truth... somedays feels okay because i keep myself busy to keep my mind from thinking about you and the fact that you're not there... somedays i felt there's no reason for me to get up and go to work other than to keep myself from being utterly bored.... haha!

that's how it is anyway for now... will be better later, i guess, when i'm used to it.... i'm back to normal owh me... heck i'm back to square one..... no motivation.

Dear Blog

I'm sorry that i've been ignoring you (my blog) for a loooong time... if you were a person and feeds on my posting, i guess you would have died of starvation like that guy in se7en.. who the killer think is guilty of sloth.

I'm actually gonna make this post about him.... yes, here i am writing about him again... my friends must be bored reading about this.... can't help it... i always had him in my mind.. and it has been quite a while since i wrote about anything. being in love with him is the best that i've ever been since i started working. I love him soo much.... never thought i found someone like that. this might be scaring you as some guys told me.... why do girls when in their relationship, where they guy is getting to know the girl (only) but the girl is already thinking this guy is husband material (hahaha).

I'm sorry you guys felt that way ..... pity all the boys in the hood. Wait till you like someone and that someone says.... i'm just starting to know you, let's just be friends.... see how that feels. aaaa.... now you know how it feels :) so don't ask me to pity them guys in the hood.

I can tell you my dear blog that i've never been in love like this... it's like i found my better half (cliche, i know) can't imagine what will happen next or even 5-10 years from now..... that what if? questions lingers in my brain still. L.if.E is full of IF...... sigh!

things might not be this beautiful and yet i hope i'm surrounded by white lilies for my big day and fields of sunflowers in the sunshine to cheer me up for any bad day ahead..... talks about dreams eh? hahaha..... funny for me to talk about this when i used to say that i rather stay single than deal with the downs of marriage.... i'm tired of listening on how bad people's relationship/ marriage are. instead of talking to me or whoever's there with a lending ear.... why don't they tell that to their partner? ask your partner to shut up for 10 minutes and listen.... then speak you heart out...

all men and women out there... please listen to each other. have an open conversation to let the dirty air out you know..... might do you some good... if not (feelings are gonna be hurt.. i know) keep and open mind... think how your partner felt (how hard it is for them to even begin telling you) and how relief he or she is when they can lift a bit of burden in their shoulder.

feels good to be able to do that.












Posted this while watching tv. I'm in love with him.

this is it?

I've been facing rough patches lately... well what can i expect? can't be seeing rainbows and sunshine all the way right? ..... that's so naive of me as my best friend would testify... i remember when I'm membebel to her at the office, i said that it's not about how you went thru' the good stuff, or what problem you might bump into.... it's how you deal with the problem that you bump into that matters. People forget about good times... it's the bad ones that stays a while.. that teaches you, that hurts you, that make you regret you take the risk and yet you take the leap believing that things would be different. We would be different this time we said to ourself... we won't repeat those mistakes we did. We would be better, more patient,listens and etc... yet when a conflict comes, we fall hard.. it feels like the end... what you and me try to build now feels like a burden, that it is tiring..... somehow we began to questions why the heck we do this? why even bother..... sigh.

I'm gonna do this even if it breaks me.. love you. I meant it with all my heart and soul.

mi familia

my dad n mom.


abg ipar and my sister.

mom,sister,me

cousins,nephews,nieces and my sis

everybody lah.

everybody and my late grandma.

after searching thru things here and there. so far this is all that i've of pictures of my mom,dad, sis. old pictures are all in kedah. this one i have old already lah but not of my mom and dad masa muda mudi. hehehe.